stopwastingtime

"i thought i could organize freedom, how scandinavian of me"

Mon, 16 Aug 2010 23:58:30 -0400

““i thought i could organize freedom, how scandinavian of me””

- bjork, hunter

recap.

Sun, 18 Jul 2010 21:38:00 -0400

it’s good to nestle back into my borough after 3 days in durham. i am super excited for the opportunities that have just opened up for me, not only financially and professionally, but growth wise as well. i learned a lot about myself and other people this weekend, and it was spectacular. it was like nothing you’ve ever experience before, and nothing that any other (ill just speak for corporate) company will offer to you. we engaged in workshops in which we practiced communication skills (and not corporate retail jargon, things that will help you in life) i was given the green light to express my creative side (we made commercials, plays, etc) and basically told to think critically. no one has challenged me to think critically in years.

omg. i’m about to enter a job that encourages me to think? what kind of monster have they created?

i have never bothered to visit durham, nc, so this weekend...

Wed, 14 Jul 2010 15:38:00 -0400

i have never bothered to visit durham, nc, so this weekend i’m super excited to check out a new city. better yet, i will be training in the warehouse district (apple has pimped out an old warehouse) so i will have great photo opportunities.

a little fyi, apparently, washington duke set up a huge tobacco empire back in the 1800s, which was durham’s main industry at the time. of course it is no longer tobacco, but the Duke name and legacy continues to bring great opportunities to the area, can you guess how?

using social global media in order to combat the consequences of globalization. i fucking love it....

Mon, 28 Jun 2010 23:08:13 -0400

using social global media in order to combat the consequences of globalization.

i fucking love it. it’s just like osama bin laden using western technology to film threats against america.

some things you may not see everyday. the second is my favorite.

Mon, 28 Jun 2010 23:03:00 -0400

soviet era apartment buildings painted

Piet Blom's 1970s cubic houses in Rotter

Crooked House, Sopot, Poland, completed

some things you may not see everyday.

the second is my favorite.

back to greensboro

Sun, 27 Jun 2010 16:03:38 -0400

leaving wilmington was a little bit hard yesterday. i have forged a lot of friendships over the past few months, and i have come to love people in that city. a lot changed during my time in wilmington, jobs, relationships, outlooks, friendships, etc. i feel like what i took away with me is invaluable. i learned to come to love people as they are, and to also accept and appreciate people loving me.

as i come back to greensboro that same lesson holds true. one of my friends is watching otis and she’s totally excited about it, and she told me she missed me and i could tell she really did. as i met up with other friends at a usual haunt, we all looked at each other, smiled, and knew that we did not have to use any words to communicate what we were all feeling. :)

today, i was driving to a job interview and i look over and my best friend cory is in the car next to me. i also visited another good friend after the interview and she is excited to have me back as well.

i never realized, or allowed myself to feel appreciated and loved by others. the transition from wilmington to greensboro opened that up to me. i feel this warm emotion permeating my heart and while it’s strong sometimes and hard to deal with, i know that it’s a good thing.

now i have work to do. i have to keep connecting and making connections with people and allowing love to flow freely. i have to open my creativity and use it as a tool to help people and society. i have to keep opening my mind to new experiences. i have to run with life. it’s hard sometimes and i get anxious a lot, but i’m excited for the new opportunities and challenges that will occur on my journey.

i am reborn.

lacking linearity.

Thu, 17 Jun 2010 11:20:15 -0400

hills. curves. rain. vegetation. health. sharing. positivity. abundance. progression.

uncg’s interior arcitecture program is teaming up with the city of greensboro during the lee street revitalization project. the city of greensboro bought land which is was being used for polluting businesses, shady hotels, etc. in order to beautify and revitalize a part of the city which was becoming ugly in more senses than one.

http://uncgiarc.wordpress.com/

i’ve never realized till now how progressive my home was. :)

greeted back in greensboro greenly and greatly. puns intended....

Tue, 15 Jun 2010 01:20:30 -0400

greeted back in greensboro greenly and greatly. puns intended.

quote of the night “im going to go reload” in reference to a smoking device.

creative night with jess and jill. jill is drawing davie bowie with crayola markers, jess loer is doing long exposure photography, and i did some design.

im excited about moving back i think a lot of good creativity is going to come from this, though my head has been spinning all day.

possibilities

Sat, 12 Jun 2010 16:59:00 -0400

the pride ride went amazingly well. i’ve never organized anything in my life, so a little success put me on a high. equality NC came out to show their support as well. :) i’d like to see and organize more show your pride rides in my time.

i’ve been thinking heavily of going back to school for graphic design/web development. i even have my classes registered for the fall. going back to gso and finding a job/place will be tedious though.

i also received an email from americorps requesting a phone interview for a position setting up and working with a food co-operative in fairbanks, alaska. im going to go through with the interview and give it my all and see the outcomes from there.

so, my life is an open book once again. i’m 24 and i have absolutely no clue, and while at times it stresses me out, its the most beautiful thing i’ve experienced yet. i always knew i would start doing great things at this age

so, LETS GO!

https://my.americorps.gov/mp/listing/viewListing.do?nsaID=458204&applicationSubmissionID=705536&id=34269

taken from my daily journal.

Fri, 11 Jun 2010 14:06:03 -0400

June 11, 2010

Time to grow up.

Real time space/www space.

Our experiences are changing once again from this realm into the other. While I have been living in real time here with you, I think our experience at the moment will build and grow in the other realm. That’s where you like being best, and I think I am growing to embrace the other realm again. I’ve totally engulfed myself in it before, then lashed out against it to the point where I had no forms of in engaging in the internet, television, etc. I’ve experienced both realms to their extreme, and now I want to balance and harmonize them. I want to create and love and be happy in real time, but I also want to do those same things in 1s and 0s.

01001001 00100000 01101100 01101111 01110110 01100101 00100000 01111001 01101111 01110101

Haha. So I’m going off to graphic design/web technologies school. I’ll be creating real time graphics, but also those I can use on the web, and hopefully this experience will enable me to create things I have yet to even imagine imagining. Perhaps I can collaborate with others who feel the same way I do, I’ve found one so far.

THEORY: “It Don’t Exist”, The Impact of Sprawl and Suburban...

Thu, 10 Jun 2010 17:00:43 -0400

THEORY: “It Don’t Exist”, The Impact of Sprawl and Suburban Build-out on Inner City America

Taken from americansuburbx.com

the mcCollough effect

Wed, 09 Jun 2010 15:07:23 -0400

the mcCollough effect

adderall receives honorary degree from harvard.

Tue, 08 Jun 2010 14:03:12 -0400

adderall receives honorary degree from harvard.

During the 1970s, magazines published in Communist...

Tue, 08 Jun 2010 10:00:00 -0400

During the 1970s, magazines published in Communist Czechoslovakia were controlled by the state, like the majority of other enterprises. Very few good magazines were available and were difficult to get hold of, so people would borrow and exchange them when given the opportunity. This also applied to magazines aimed at young people, which was probably one of the reasons why almost everyone from my generation, when we get on to the subject of pinhole cameras, has fond memories of the cut-out paper camera known as Dirkon^*, published in 1979 in the magazine ABC

this band did rip off a whole decade in a 3 minute song, but...

Mon, 07 Jun 2010 23:40:18 -0400

this band did rip off a whole decade in a 3 minute song, but they did it so well.

photos from around the world.

Mon, 07 Jun 2010 21:48:24 -0400

photos from around the world.

Photo

Mon, 07 Jun 2010 21:36:12 -0400

i’ve reached many breaking points as of lately. the move to a new city has produced many...

Mon, 07 Jun 2010 15:12:38 -0400

i’ve reached many breaking points as of lately. the move to a new city has produced many changes in me, some bad, but i think most of them are for the best. as confusing as times have been and as much drama and emotions i have created for myself, i do believe in the end this move was good for me.

for the past 5 years i have been constantly nagging myself in my own head about making a change in the world, and to stop accepting the shit that other people want to give you. i have worked corporate jobs for most of my life, and accepted the bottom feeder status in which they have bestowed upon me. it is hard to break out of that mindset, even harder to live without someone else managing your time and handing you meager subsidies. why is it hard? because it’s all i’ve ever known, it’s what a lot of people have ever known and still to do this day know.

yes, i am writing this entry in a rush of emotion and frustration, if that was not obvious.

i’ve been giving someone a hard time for doing the same things i want to accomplish, but actually having small successes while i brood behind a brew. it is much easier to destroy than create, to pollock your fantasies and desires under the influence than to actually try and achieve them when your brain is not swimming.

at times i have my philosophical moments and at those times i know i have the strength to accomplish what i desire, though i do not give myself enough of those moments because i fear loneliness. i migrate back to the herd and engage in the mentality to have momentary comforts.

i’ve received much patience lately, as well as words of encouragement and kindness. lest i not forget those words and these fueling moments i have decided to keep up with a journal. while sometimes my words may be akin to millennium livejournal angst, i hope that they keep reminding me of the steps i need to take to break out of this samsara.

since sinkholes have been brought to our attention:

Tue, 01 Jun 2010 21:32:10 -0400

since sinkholes have been brought to our attention:

i woke up; its raining

Tue, 01 Jun 2010 11:33:50 -0400

time for rearranging. the album of the day is weezer’s pinkerton.